I love to say to myself in times like this, "Tommorrow at this time, it will all be over."

I have the speech memorized, I've gone over it a few times in front to teachers and other people. My roommate was the best critic, and as a result, I have realized there are many basic words that I have been mispronouncing. He ruthlessly pointed out what sounds really American, or where the accent is up instead of down.

God let this speech be over...

My roommate, who speaks really great Japanese, listened to my speech. He actually went way beyond my expectations, gave me a lot of helpful criticism, and let me read the speech three times. He also said I can bug him again tomorrow. The next day is the speech contest.

I haven't asked for his help before, because I hate to bother people. What a waste. Anyway, it was a good thing.

There was an article about 2 years ago, (I read about it here on Slashdot) about an experiment where bloggers wrote an SAT-style essay and were then graded. In the end, in many ways teenagers wrote about the same as adults. Of course, we (adults) forget grammar and usage, but the part that grabbed me was:

In English, i.e. my everyday life in America, there came a point that I looked at how I spoke. I was always inserting hyperbole to emphasize my statements, sometimes to the point of lying. Saying, "My boss makes decisions I disagree with" would become, "My boss is the biggest asshole. He is an idiot, too. Dumb as a tree." Now none of these are true on many levels, I have never worked for an animated rectum. Nor was my boss an idiot, in fact that word applies to no one in this day and age.

I'm listening to a recording I just did on my digital camera of myself giving a speech. I think it's making my spine oscillate.

I have to give this speech in front of 1000 Japanese Language students on January 31. Oh my god. Perhaps it's time to go back to America and get a job at the Burger King. Just fade into the woodwork...

Ganbarimasu.

I have held off on posting Ikebukuro, as I come here every day for school, and wanted to think of something profound to say about the place. Now, having given up on that I will go ahead and add it.

雨にも負けず
風にも負けず
雪にも夏の暑さにも負けぬ
丈夫なからだをもち
慾はなく
決して怒らず
いつも静かに笑っている
一日に玄米四合と
味噌と少しの野菜を食べ
あらゆることを
自分を勘定に入れずに
よく見聞きし分かり
そして忘れず
野原の松の林の陰の
小さな萱ぶきの小屋にいて
東に病気の子供あれば
行って看病してやり
西に疲れた母あれば
行ってその稲の束を負い
南に死にそうな人あれば
行ってこわがらなくてもいいといい
北に喧嘩や訴訟があれば
つまらないからやめろといい
日照りの時は涙を流し
寒さの夏はおろおろ歩き
みんなにでくのぼーと呼ばれ
褒められもせず
苦にもされず
そういうものに
わたしは
なりたい

Be not defeated by the rain, Nor let the wind prove your better.
Succumb not to the snows of winter. Nor be bested by the heat of summer.

Often, I hear words in conversation that I know, yet I am unable to recall. If someone else uses them, I know immediately, but I don't think I would be able to spontaneously insert into a sentence. Today it was "誤解", a mistake. A good word for me to know.

Studying Kanji too, I have become very familiar my memories capabilities. Memorizing is actually a pretty exact science. If I have a certain amount of words, I can fairly accurately determine how many days of study I need to remember them. That's just for test prep. I have to read the Kanji pretty regularly or I'll forget it.

Japanese is full of homonyms. English is too but I wonder who has more? Japanese has a rather small sound pallette, so it's full of words that sound different to native speakers, but very alike to my Western ears. Plus, there are many similar sounding words, where you have to differentiate between "go" and gou" or "kyu" and "kyuu". One of the first I remember was:顔ーKao：Face　＆　買うーKau－To Buy

When I was learning to ride a motorcycle, the most important thing my teachers taught me was, while turning, not to look in front of me, but look at where I was going, i.e. the end of the curve in the road. We had to drive around a square lot, and at each corner, we had to learn to turn our heads away from where we were headed at an uncomfortable angle, then proceed into the turn. After a few weeks of practice, my turning became less wobbly and nerve-racking.