I am a little embarrassed by my naivete when I keep running into words I don't know. I think I didn't expect the Japanese vocabulary to be so, um, large. I wonder which languages have smaller vocabularies. I briefly looked and apparently English has the largest, so I guess I shouldn't complain. There's probably some language in New Guinea that I could be speaking fluently by now, though.
Also, it's nice to see from the stats that people are reading this. Again, a little embarrassing that I happen to be in the midst of a semester long panic attack, but this is part of my therapy.
Tonight, I was struggling with 2 paragraphs that I had to write for class and when I got done, I looked down at them and calculated that it took me 2 hours to write these measly paragraphs. I thought, "Who would hire someone that writes at a speed of one paragraph/hour, and the paragraph is full of mistakes?"
An insane person, that's who. But tonight, I realized why I hate doing these writing exercises. It's not (as previously grumbled to myself) that the exercize is dumb, or for simpletons, or the theme sucks or I need conversation/grammar/vocabulary practice more. The reason I hate it is because I am not good at it. Yep, brilliant, right? But I have been making excuses, and the reality is, I need a lot of practice.
It felt good to admit this to myself. I want to have a more positive attitude. In class, I fear I have become the Vortex of Dark Matter. Tomorrow is a new day. I should add one more platitude, but I have homework.