I have been doing some reading and kanji practice. It's strange how there are some kanji I just can't seem to memorize. We haven't even gotten to the real hard characters. After I finish the book I am using, then the next book covers the last 1000.
I feel a little guilty that I can't put more time into Japanese on this break. I admit that I am passing up opportunities to speak Japanese. And it's still because of pride.... I feel like I should be further along, so I am embarrassed to make simple mistakes. But, if I don't speak, I am going to continue making simple mistakes.
I can't really dwell on it. Today I will try to do better. Speaking proper Japanese and overcoming my pride (which is really just fear) are two very distinct issues.
Plus, It's vacation. I will be back in school in a week, (whoops, 4 days!), speaking all the bad Japanese you can eat. In fact, I had a dream last night, a recurring dream, where I am back in high school, but don't know where my classes are. Only, the difference was I was in my new Japanese class, and was happy, then I started looking for last semester's classmates, and realized I had been put in a first grade class. Literally, the other students were 6 years old, and didn't speak any Japanese.
Thanks, my unconscious mind. That's some real confidence there.